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2010-06-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

My last post was ages ago.
Recently, have been very unlucky..
Or rather, maybe is me getting retribution..
These few nights, had not been sleeping well..
Had been thinking of lots of weird stuff,
i wish God would take me back to my age of innocence.
i know i wouldn't be living good without you giving me jobs that time..
Money is sure tempting..
but i guess my future worth more
as i got a
FANTASTIC + SUPER CARING GIRLFRIEND :D

To Babylove,
For the past 4month plus, you had been such a great girlfriend that any guy in this world
would want to have you as their girlfriend. You had been super caring and thoughtful, melts me totally.. Your silly thoughts, actions , the way you look at me and the way you smile.. makes everything worthwhile. Nothing matters at all when i'm with you, all that i want and need is you.
Stay with me foreve...
From ;
BabyRavey :D

2010-05-08T12:05:00.008+08:00

It's been a while since i blogged, yesterday went out with Baby and secondary school friends.
Sorry JJ that i didnt attend your birthday celebration.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAJUN!

Parents went overseas, for the past weeks.
Had been staying over at Granny house.
Thanks baby for keeping me company & being there for me :D

Our 3rd month anniversary,
Sorry that i didnt bring you out for dinner.
You've been the best girlfriend anyone could have.
Nothing else seems to matters when i'm with you.
Your letter , your gifts.
i read your letter everynight before i sleep.
Its so sweet. Thanks for everything babylove.
<3

My BABY ! :D by ME

This is me by Baby

BABY & ME

by BABY

Sweetest time with you babylove. [:

2010-04-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

you're the habit that I can't quit

The times we spent together ;
The little jokes we had
The sweet sound of your voice
The cutey look of yours
Your green eyes, they're mine
You and I are one of a kind
The contour on your lips
I love the way that you taste
You know what i'm gonna say
before my mouth even makes a sound
We both laughed at most random situation
That's the key, our love
You have made me so addicted to you.
We've been together for two month plus now
All that you've given me
The happiness cant be brought by money or found anywhere
Is you & me
Together we'll move slowly
I'll never leave you alone

This post is dedicated to you baby
You have no idea how bad i'm missing you right now.

you & i

2010-04-04T17:31:00.002+08:00

Everything out there reminds me of you,
Memories they find a way into my head,
Everyone is saying i should let it burn instead..
instead, Staying up and watching tv all alone,
Holding on the phone thinking that i should dial,
the number just to hear you say hello again,
but i'm afraid what should i do ,
to call you or to miss you,
they say you dont deserve me,
and clearly you just used me,
so tell me what to say,
dont leave me questioning,
i know i'm stronger than before,

Because i went everywhere to look for all the answers,
i tried to numb myself but it was useless,
i tried to hold your hand,
you said i'm not your man,
i really tried to make you see,
that we were meant to be,

Watching a movie i hate to be with you,
learning the guitar to play a song for you,
i ask about you all the time where you're in my heart,
you belong, you belong ~ in my heart,
these people like to talk about us,
these people say we're perfect,
then now they say you dont deserve me,
you probably just guilty,
is that the reason why,
you're with some other guy,
what is it that i dont possess,

Because i went everywhere to look for all the answers,
i tried to numb myself but it was useless,
i tried to hold your hand,
you said i'm not your man,
But i believe you me,
are really meant to be,
Guess what you see,
i love you baby till the end of the time,
should be moreover i touch you,
i know what i have to,
to do till get to you,
i'm looking at the vasting sky,
and that was you & i..

Our 2nd Month ; loves

2010-03-31T03:33:00.014+08:00

Our love

Yesterday's our 2nd Month Anniversary !
Fetch Baby at her place & went over AMK hub,
Caught " How To Train Your Dragon " & Baby's in love with Night Fiery aka " Toothless "
Actually heading over to East Coast , but the rain's way too big that spoils everything !
Went over to my Granny's place while waiting for the rain to stop,
Baby look so engrossed with that chinese movie , its effing cute ; i SWEAR !
Aft the movie, go over Hougang Mall for Macdonalds !
Shopped at NTUC after dinner , making fun of everything we saw.
That was really enjoyable!
Slack over Our Favourite Park,
Moonlight ! ; Romantic Night love !,
knowing that you've to work yet you stayed over with me,
You're simply the best !

Our Sweet Romance

Happy 2nd Month darling !
You're the one who had made me being so addicted to you,

You're the who had made me change,
You're the reason who made me tends to hold my pillow tight
Cos you're the the one i'm thinking of when i lay down every night
If it wasn't for you, i would never be who i am,
Thank you for everything you had done for me,
You're simply the best girl !

Shan's Rave !

I'll lend you my shoulders to cry on ,
My ears for you to listen to what you have to say,
My hands for you to hold,
My feet to walk with you,
But my heart.. no i can't,
Cause it already belongs to you,
Never letting go.

2010-03-26T01:16:00.002+08:00

Its been so long, since i blogged.
Yesterday some stupid stuff happened, what else?
Only got myself to blame. well, anyway, its all over.
I'm Sorry to those people that i got them involved.

As i think back, i guess i had changed..

I'm not so daring
I'm not so choing
compared to last time..
I dont know what i'm afraid of
I just wanna get her and making sure she's safe
All i can think is her.
I really dont want her to get hurt..
When in the middle of the fight, my mind's all about her.
My heart's really broke into pieces when i knew that she got hitted.
Whats for a useless boyf that cant protect his own Girl.
Fuck it.

I'm so sorry everyone.

The spaces between my fingers,
Where yours fit perfectly. <3

2010-03-13T19:40:00.009+08:00

On 12 of march , went power house with Baby , Kokwei , Sky , Eugene
and some other people that i cant remember anyway.
Not a good night anyway , aft that , went home .

On 13 of march, Stayed at home , went AhMa house , slackked all the way, went bugis
take some stuff, get to meet baby there as she went movies with them. Ate bk , took
Bus 80 backk. slackked at park. till 3 am :D

Time seems to fly when i'm with you.
This time, i dont need any perfect line ,
I dont care if critics never jump in line,
Aint in any position to change anything,
As long as you put a smile on your face.
This LOVE , This Hate

2010-03-10T14:12:00.002+08:00

I used to hide away and only try to save myself from falling in love, or staying up on the shelf

I was afraid to walk the streets alone

Just waiting for something that could save my life

Well it doesn't even matter, if we got no plan

As long as i'm holding on to your hand

2010-03-04T14:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went powerhouse with ♥Baby and diana.
At first queuing for the ladies drink is effing boring..
Queued for ONE hour & after that, when in dancceee floor & had fun.
Drank flaming lambo with ♥Baby & diana, me and ♥baby drank the most, diana only suck up one sip.. quite fun actually not mentioning that FUCKING zirca which spoils my beloved mood. FUCK it.

Looking through the mirror.
♥

2010-02-28T15:42:00.011+08:00

The ring that will keep us holding forever..

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRR ! :D

FUCK it ! Total time of sleep = Wednesday + Thursday + Friday = 4 + 3 + 4

= 11hours

3days of EXAMS not even 12hours of sleep, do you think i can do well ?

i DOUBT so. luckily, my beloveddd baby accompained me throughout these days, if not..

i dont think i can keep myself going.

PEDRIVES' FUCKED UP. I DONT WANNA TAKE SUB PAPER ! ]:

HOPEFULLY not..

its been so long sinceee i blogged , so many things happened but only times with baby's worth mentioning ! :X

My Valentines PRESENT !

Nicee Horr ! So sweet of her :D <33

NICE ? lols. DONT BE JEALOUS ><

Sister's birthday
Parents opened chalet for sister's 21st birthday.

She's getting old :/ times really flies.

Everyone's getting older except me ; i still feel like a kidd. :

Brought 315 bucks SWATCH lady's watch for her.

Red Packet money all's gone ! lol.

if you ever see this post. dont cry to me saying that i'm your best lil brother :x

To joey sister ,

Thanks for helping me out, whenever i'm in trouble,

you never say no to me.

I'm not your lil good brother , yet you still help me despite that i stepped on yr stupid korean poster & dismantling your barbie dolls when we're young :D

i promise, i swear ! i wont forget everything you had done to help me.

I still rmb whenever i quarrel with daddy, you always cry to stop me from arguing with dad.

i GOT SCOLDED, YOU CRY FOR WHAT ? -.-

i wont forget.. thanks for the things you had done !

you're going in army soon.

ALL THE BEST SISTER ! :D

Five Achievement of my mum

loves !

Yesterday went rebel with Baby , kokwei, kaijie, jiajun, sky , eugene , ashriffas usual , its fun as always ! Opened two bottles, i'm going broke soon. i still owe some of them money -_-

My sweet Romance ;

HAPPY FIRST MONTH BABY !

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELLOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

you loads !

you showed me the way what really love is,

i'll never let you go.

Incompelete post, i still got loads to update but i'm running late.

TO BE CONTINUED....

2010-02-18T10:55:00.002+08:00

F U C K I T !
Drunk.. staggered..
it hurts..
heartbreakk..
sleep.. to shut off my brain.

2010-02-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

Last week of school, everyone's rushing their projects.
Everyone seems so busy except for LOVELL.
yet, i'm lying on my bed watching naruto, doing nothing that contributes to my studies.

Today my FIRST and LAST , POD lab lasted for 15mins only.
Luckily that old fag released us early, if not i'm gonna die of boredom.
Lazing around with kokwei while waiting for darling to finish her projects,
lazeee around in school thinking of what design should i do for my MachTECH.
Hopefully this time round, i can clear my POD & MachTECH.
l'm quite satisfied with my result this semster , hope i can do well can pull up my GPA!

Tmr's going out with darling ! I cant wait ! kekes.

Let our trust, not our past disappointments shape the future of our love.
I may sound frivolous in my words, but every word i meant it from the bottom of my heart.

2010-02-08T01:04:00.015+08:00

my love ♥

you make it all better when i'm feeling sad,

you told me that i'm special even though i know i'm not,

i'm so glad that i found you.

you taught me about the precious thing that are right beside me

just like the story, that will go on forever.

2010-02-07T08:47:00.013+08:00

Oh oh oh, I'm taking time out to blog once in awhile, sorry for making this blog private cause i aint updating since 1st of jan, delete all my cbox messages.
I'm sorry about that.

Clubbing's really enjoyable when you're with your group of brothers & beloved !
Who the fuck says clubbing is only for bad people JIMMY??
Just another form of relieving yourself from all th stress you're facing okay!
God damn stupid, i needa get my CNY clothes soon.
Mum's nagging whole day just because CNY is next sunday & to make her happy,
WHO WANNA SHOP WITH ME FOR CLOTHES ?

I'm so hungry right now, yet, its only 8am plus in th morning.
Yesterday went rebel with , Shanayee ! <33 , kokwei , kaijie , sky , a**** [FUCK, I dont know how to spell yr name ] , Diana , Eugene , Jiajun , XingRong .

Went Powerhouse just now with ; KokWei , JiaJun , Kaijie , Sky , Eugene ,
Eugene's GF.

Saw YY over there with his army friends,
Drank TWO flamming lambo which makes me sooo hot.

Stupid YY kept pushing beers to me.
awww.
Hard liquor + tiger beer, imagine the effects ? [:
Went home earlier, not in a mood to danceeee.
Kok wei's kinda sad. CHEER UP FUCKER!
Aint end of the world isnt it.
I'm starting to cough more and more often.
Maybe i will die soon! F3 -MapleExpression

No words can describe how i feel for you.
addicted to you.

2010-01-13T22:52:00.004+08:00

At first, i thought loving a person would be easy.
Staying devoted & faithful will make a relationship last.
Well, till then , i realised its not that easy at all, it takes two hands to clap.
Have you ever wonder, if i can see through your lies?

i'm happy for you. Take Care!

falling in love is not finding the perfect person,
but learning to love an imperfect person perfectly ❤

没有经历过爱情的人生是不完整的，没有经历过痛苦的爱情是不深刻的

2010-01-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPPY NEWW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Well, today is the 1st of january!
A new year , a new start ehs ?
yesterday countdown was kinda different from th previous years.
met weijun,binghan,philemon,thenghui,weisheng,jiajun,jackson & (jiajun,jackson)'s GFs at bugis for steamboat!
reached there around 720, went off at 815 & i paid twenty dollars for a stupid meal.
Went to butterfac, fking lowdown club that has lots of communication error between the staff. Queued, and found out th music theme is trance.
stupid theme for a countdown ! we walked away...........
WALKED over the clark Q, went to rebel.
saw some of my old friends there, well, i was kinda happy to see them.
they're still the same.
after that, club till 4plus, cabbed home. reached home around 5plus!
Summerise here is better than in msg right :D

well, ytd was kinda fun than usual, opened bottle, which i havent pay wj's friend yet.
drink like nobody business, went into the dancehall & had fun.
Didnt get to see fireworks though.

2009-12-27T15:50:00.002+08:00

Well, i revived my blog, anyway, i revived it cos i'm bored~
Today is LeeWEIJUN BIRTHHHDAYYY ::::::::::::::::::
Haha, Happpy Birthday day WEIJUN~ this post is dedicated to you.
::

be bad

2009-09-03T14:01:00.001+08:00

It is so true, about the phrase the one you love the most,
hurts you the most, especially if you experience it yourself~

forgot how long it have taken, just to heal the wound,
no, it is not healed yet, as how i sees it.
this is what's that been holding me back..

lots of people say, girls go for bad guys, and good guys will never get any good girls.
seems that i must admit, it is kinda true.
no matter how good you are, they just had something to complain about,
and yea, they really tend to fell for bad guys.
so, does this means i gotta be a bad guy to be with someone...?
but i think most probably it won't happen... or i might turn bad and never be, who i used to be...

told myself before, and vowing that i would do anything, for the one i wanted to be with...
yet.... where's this promise that i've made gone to...?
seems that i forgot how i did it last time...
doing things, for someone, for no particular reason,
just because, i liked her...

there's no such person around me now, that'll make me make those moves again...
no, wait, there is, just that either they are not around, or i know i shouldn't be acting that way again.

used to think that i've fallen for someone, yet, thinking back and comparing, well, maybe not...
is it that my heart for her wasn't so strong...?
or was it that there are no chance for me to do, what i could have done, just for her...?
who knows.... even i don't know...?

is and was thinking about Loves too much lately, maybe because boredom brings out loneliness, and pushing me hard to find someone to spend time and money with...?
most probably..... and yea, still no solution or cure for it yet.....

2009-09-01T13:23:00.002+08:00

For now, i really don't have any demands for things,
because there are nothing else i should ask for.

the only thing that i wished for, for now, is that
things will be worked out, for both of us.
really Really wishes that She could take another step, into my world, into my life,
deeper, closer....

come to think about it, how silly i am, posting about this wish,
knowing that she wont know about, and yet i posted about this..

we weren't even close before, and still, we ain't that close now either,
but somehow, we got closer...
and yes, i DO wish it'll get much more closer....

maybe because i'm selfish, i needed someone, and i wished that she could be that particular someone..
but life must be fair, and i shouldn't be forcing anyone,
i know, in the deepest part of my heart, that nothing will be worked out,
if she don't need anyone right now...
relationship is a mutual thing, it only will run smooth if there are mutual feeling toward each other..
i want that relationship to run smooth, and lengthy...

i need to know the answer...
and i don't know how and when i can get the answer..
only time will show to me, the answer to all my question,
that has been frequently running through my mind...

it took me 4 hours to post this shit.
i guess. i feel much better now..
thanks ling! thanks

2009-09-01T13:18:00.001+08:00

Have you ever think about the meaning of Being Alive?
have you ever thought about what your life should be?

Every person live their life in their own way.
some preferred it to be Challenging,
some Preferred it to be Normal.
for now, i'm kinda felt lost about how my life should be....
i dreamed about a relaxing, chilling kinda life.
spend my time, with the person i like...
doing things that we enjoy doing...

and now...?
every single day, doing the same thing again and again,
over and over again...
all bored up, all alone....
don't even have a friend to chat with,when i'm bored.

you might say:[Hey, you can find me and chat whenever you wanted to.]
my answer would be: [No... i don't want to chat with just any ordinary friends.]

know why?
because i know you guys don't really cared. i needed someone who really cared, who i felt safe sharing my secrets with...
someone who i know, will be there for me when i needed them.
and sorry for Christians, i don't believe the whole 'God is always by your side.' thing.
sorry to say, i'm not trying to prove your believes are wrong,
just that my believe is that i decide my faith, not someone who i never saw, and will never be able to see, that decides my faith.

and some of you knew that i had a crush on somebody..
just to let you all know, sad to say that, i had this bad feeling, that the Shine of Hope is fading...
i don't even have the strength to pull myself up and work for what i want.
i don't know what causes this, and i don't know how to get rid of it.
i don't even know who to get help from.

so many stupid moves that i've taken, resulting several stabs into my heart.
maybe the wound is still there, maybe it never healed, maybe it'll stay there forever.
no one to be blamed for the stupid things i did.
and are not asking for forgiveness for the stupid things that I've done.
and yes, I'm still doing stupid things, even though i know what i really should be doing.

and yes, i must thanks someone for shining up my days recently,
although is too foreign to be seeing this, but Thanks.
Thursday will be the one day that'll make a difference.
Whether we'll become closer friends, or part and move on with our life.
but still, i have to thank you, for giving me such nice times and chats,
although we've just known each other like a few weeks.
maybe it is true, like what you say, AMC and ST does suites each other.
maybe there's some kind of weird power, pulling us closer.

Lastly, i'm sorry, for all the stupid things that i've done, that i'm doing, and that i'm going to do next.

2009-07-29T22:25:00.001+08:00

Well, when I was younger, I was so full of fear.
I hid behind anger, held back the tears.
It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win.
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins.
I felt so alone, so insecure,
I blamed you instead and made sure I was heard.
And they tried to warn me of my evil ways.
But I couldn't hear what they had to say.
And I think about my loves, well I've had a few.
I'm sorry that I hurt them, did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted, put my heart on the shelf.
But, how can you love when you don't love yourself?
Well I grew up fast, I grew up hard.
something was wrong from the very start.
I was fighting everybody, I was fighting everything.
but the only one that I hurt was me.
I got "society's" blood running down my face,
Somebody help me get outta this place.
How could someone's bad luck last so long?
until I realized that I was wrong.

2009-07-20T00:26:00.001+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best
friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
More food for thought and action.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin
You hit it on the head! It's hard not to look for those red flags of your past life, but to be fair you got to start clean in each relationship. Life is to short to take a chance on missing the love of your life on a hint of problem you have had before. Live for today for tomorrow may never come.

by weijun..

2009-07-17T12:01:00.004+08:00

SUPER SUPER SUPER BUSY THIS FEW WEEKS.
I'm sorry bloggie, i neglected you, ):
hehe. when i was on the bus just now going
to my granny place, for a moment,
i thought of my past , thinking of what i had achieved so far.
Guess what, I feel that i had achieve nothing yet, i'm sucha failure!
BUT I WILL ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING BIG IN THE FUTURE!
This is what i had promised myself and i'm aiming for that.
i'm not gonna tell whats my dream is about. :D
so dont ask me! ---> to ppl u shd know yourself! hehe.

Have been playing maple lesser and lesser.
i kinda sick of that game.
Level High so what?
people tends to suck up to you cos you're high level.
people will flirt you, to get items they wanted ,
Is this the reality in the working industry?
Is maple REALLY so fun to someone ?
In a day, there's 24 hrs.
you can even play for 18 hrs.
When you have your breakfast , lunch , dinner.
you can even eat in infront of it.
Our timing is still different.
you're only awake in the night , sleep in morning.
maybe you guys are still young , one day you will come to realise that
even you had everything in the game, in reality, you're nothing.

Anyone interested in learning Muai thai?
I have been in fightworks club for almost 2mths.
had not really been engage in a match.
i really wanted to fight someone till the end in the ring.
even if i know i will lose, i will still fight on.
recently Weijun joined fightworks too.
hehe. we got to train together!
ONE KICK TO YO FACE!
YOU WILL FLY TO PENANG!
hehe. just kidding,
you shd suck my dick!

o

2009-07-02T00:48:00.003+08:00

With those sudden kisses and passionate looks.
People only ever ask me out sarcastically.
Like her; for som reason it all connects to my memories.
I know just dropping my glass makes me cry.
But don’t ask me why.
I just dont wana repeat my mistakes again.
Understanding how each other feel is crucial for our relationship to work.
I'm not happy at all when you said that.
I'm really not.
Will i be happy if i said that to you?
Put yourself in my shoe.

You’ve learned to pretend to be strong.
So you don’t show tears.
I want to protect you forever.
Like the treasure chest I had when I was a child.
Be by my side forever.
Even if we’re far apart.
Your heart is right beside mine.
I cherish every moment with you.
I’d been longing for everything.
The whole time, I’d quietly closed my eyes.
And dreamed about our distant future.

A girl who's very small and very sensitive to the cold.
And a crybaby. =x
I stroke your hair .
And look dazedly at you.
Wrapped in my arms.
You laugh innocently, with a coquettish voice.
I love the way you smile.
It melts me.
iLOVEyou. :D

2009-06-15T19:50:00.002+08:00

Have been so busy with my life recently ,
There's so many things that i wanted to blog about ,
to share with you guys ,
i'm learning Muai-thai as my hobby ,
i'm learning to make myself stronger ,
not to fight .

2009-06-15T19:46:00.001+08:00

You make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
You tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
You make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
I'm so glad i found you.
I love being around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as (1 2 3 4)
theres only
ONE thing
TWO do
THREE words
FOUR you.
and thats
i love you.

2009-06-07T11:40:00.002+08:00

Today, once again, the world will keep spinning
With me wearing the same old expression
But there’s one thing I’d forgotten
When I take a deep breath
I see the shape of love, filling everything around me
Shining so bright

What we’re looking for won’t suddenly turn up
If we focus solely on looking for it
But there’s one thing that’s more important
That will last forever
It’s the shape of love, full of hope
Nothing can beat that

You taught me
That where I am now
Is my place

I want you to come quickly and find me in my hiding place
I spend yet another day thinking things like that

I could never have imagined I’d end up like this

I love you so much I can’t help it
But in front of you, the only words I can ever say are vague
I’m not being honest
Though I know it’s the worst thing I could do

That’s enough
I don’t think anything could make me happier
Than you being here
When I open my eyes

PS. i'm not a song writer or whatever.
my examinations just ended on last thursday,
as usual , not gonna do well..
hav been mapling ,dota`in , blackshot..

2009-06-02T23:17:00.001+08:00

Giving up doesn't always means that you are weak, sometimes it means that you're strong to let go

2009-05-28T22:52:00.001+08:00

2009-05-28T22:51:00.001+08:00

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

2009-05-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

I’m so little that I feel like I’ll be swallowed up by the crowd
But what can I do now?
I’ll close my eyes and think..
Just staying far away, doing nothing
Is nowhere near enough
It’s like being in a maze with no way out
I traced my finger
All the way along the graffiti I wrote ages ago
I’m going to stop
Pretending to be tired of it
Because I’ve discovered the real root
Of my worries,

Even the greatest people don’t know
What the future
Has planned for us
I followed the thread of a memory
And saw myself as a child, laughing
I’m going to stop pretending to be grown up
Because I’ve discovered what it really is
That’s shaking my heart..
Come and be by my side, darlin’, I hate being alone
What is it that’s keeping you away?
darlin’, just hold me..

No matter how many years go by
I’m sure we’ll be able
To keep sparkling together, somewhere
And never fade.
Sometimes I get hurt and feel like giving up
But if
I can always be beside your smile

I’ve chosen to smile, I’m hesitating to cry
I’m trying to be a strong person
But the truth is I miss you, I miss you so much
so much ..

2009-05-24T18:48:00.006+08:00

Every morning is the same, starting with the weather forecast
I’ve drifted this far
Without a dream just doing what I have to
Is that a little different than what you pictured?
My friends’ advice makes me ashamed
From now on the future is up to me

Just from the hope in my heart and body
Being scared won’t change anything
I can’t fit all my worries into my hands
But I won’t walk a path that somebody else has made

The scenery on mornings when I look down and type emails
Even when there’s gloomy news about recession
All I can do is not let it get me down
Somehow the map I got has become a maze
I’m not alone, I’m not wrong about that at least
I’ll just keep drawing in my route

Tomorrow
Even if my life doesn’t happen to change
I’ll still surely plant one seed
Even the things that get on my nerves a little
I’ll release, accept
It’s OK to take a break once in a while, right?

Happiness has various shapes

But it doesn’t matter if it’s not special, it doesn’t have to be fancy

They say couples meet by chance, we’ll start by meeting

And like a story, go on forever and ever…

I love every bit of you, your smile and even your face when you cry

You taught me about the precious things that are right beside me

Even if you end up alone

I’ll be on your side

No matter what kind of day you’re having, I’ll be by your side

The days I used to find boring are fun now
Your being here broadens my world
When you’re lonely I’ll fly to you right away, so tell me
It’s OK to say more selfish things, I’m here
I don’t want anything else but you, I just want you by my side
My love is overflowing, I can’t hold it all in my hands
From now on let’s dream the same dreams, in the same future, I’m giving you my eternal vow
We’ll be together all the time.
The fact that we’re saying “See you later” instead of “Goodbye”
Is proof that we’ll stay connected in the future.

2009-05-24T12:52:00.003+08:00

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions, they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone.

I got what i wanted , i know i have to make a choice one day .
and it will be soon . i dont wanna drag this forever on anymore ,
i'm alr very tired , tired of everything . Examinations coming ,
i've not even started revising yet , yesterday , went pub with Bh,Wj,Th .
it was so much fun . if only i could get drunk everyday . everything else doesn't
seems to matters .

we're to see and judge what kind of person he/she is ,
but , we cant see and judge for ourselves .
think!? instead of blaming others for your failure in woo`ing her ,
does the problem even lies in yourself ?

2009-05-17T14:25:00.001+08:00

As the moment i wrote this down, now i see the situation like this: you were given a chance, and you blew it. isn't it important for you to learn from it? and Prevent it from happening again?
because i'm pretty sure, people will forgive you for the first time, but they won't do the same if you repeat your mistake. No one will. so if you treasure something so much, stop making mistake that will make you lose it.

And, if you really did lose it, don't cling on to it. life is like a Flowing stream, and events are like leaves that fall into a stream, it will follow the flow of time, and it will reach the sea in the end. So the Sea gathers anything that happens in the Past. In our life, we called that Sea, History. and it is important for us to harvest for it, and not trying to bring the leaves back to the tree.

2009-05-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

I don't want this moment, to ever end,

Where everything's nothing, without you.

I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,

Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I've made my mistakes.

I stumble and fall,

But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go
.
These words are my heart and soul,

I'll hold on to this moment you know.

As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever and now.

Pieces of memories fall to the ground.

I know what I did and how so, I won't let this go.

Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,

With nowhere to go.

Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

I’m creepin' your way and these sheets aren't stoppin' me

Because I’m gonna meet you face to face

And I’m gonna start from your waist up through your navel

And we’re approaching such a place

Navigate me through your body

Navigate me

I love the way you tug on top of me

So navigate me through your body

I need the product of your fears in the form of tears

It's the only way I can survive

No denying you're the habit that I can't quit

It's only a matter of mine

The contour of you lips

They match the continents

And I still love the way that you taste

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2009-05-13T09:26:00.003+08:00

There's a moment in time
And it's stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won't bloom
Winter's kept you
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I'm so sorry now
I didn't know
Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away

2009-05-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

yes, went pub with m811 bros.
i love th feelin getting drunk.
yes. i LOVE CLUBBING AND GOING PUB!
brings me back to th old days
when i'm still in sec sch. xD
i know posting this will get me into lots of trouble.
i'm just dreaming. spare me. hehe.

Talk to me
I’m throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It’s time you see my point of view

I remember when we stole the night
Just as soon as I see you
Didn’t I didn’t I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

`another heart calls .

i WONT waste my whole life trying
To get back what was taken away.

2009-05-06T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm back evryone. (:
so many things happened recently.
sometimes ,somethings are just not within our control.
i joined floorball. managed to get into the first trail..
ahah,that trail was the first time i played floorball.
cool uh.
School is as fun as ever.
with all my bros and sisters
making fun of ea other, doing stupid things.
all these make me smile even when i'm totally upset.(:

sometimes, i really wondered to myself.
can someone say ilu to you and yet telling another person the same thing?
i just wanna be someone, to be have something inside me, to keep you beside me
all by myself.
teardrops, despair is contagious
think about the people around you when you try to gurt yrself.

till now i still cant pick up the pieces
and i have thrown my words around causing misunderstanding..
but i cant tell u the reason.
i'm sorry.
i know i have made my mistake, let u down.
and i know i cant hold on for too long
yet i dont wanna ran my whole life in the ground.
if i let you go, there's just no one who get me like you do.

i just feel so broken up..

2009-04-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

And maybe we will do this for the rest of our lives,
Maybe we will live forever,
And maybe we don't have to think it's right,

I don't feel what you feel
I don't want to feel this incomplete No one here can tell me
How to fill this space between
Everyone knows you're my one regret , my one weakness.

i wish i could be,
somebody else.
i wish i had something inside me,
to keep you beside me.

Love what you got, can't you love what you got?

2009-04-23T07:40:00.007+08:00

donkey rabbit thenghui years since i blogged,

I fail my bike tp yesterday..
maybe i should stop.

Nothing much special happened during these few days.
School had just started 4days ago, trying
hard to adapt back to school.
ahahs. we're finally Senpai of TP. 2nd year~ WOOO
i got into Japanese CDS, hiroko-sensei call me
, junhao san, i stood up feeling very nervous and said
"Hi, everyone. i'm Junhao from MTN. i choose japanese because
i got no choice." the sensei huh?! " sorry! i love everything about japanese."
yesterday we intro ourselves in JAP class , some guys got hentai face and av girls face.
i got a feeling there's alot pervert out there in my CDS CLASS like bing han.
scary siah. hehe.
-_-

sleep at 3am today.
woke up at 7.15am feeling tired.
lols. the reason is, we did a 5man zak yesterday and we managed to down it =D
NEAR TO 2-3HOURS.
13X NL , 14X NL , 14XBM , 16X BS , 12X NL.
zai hor?

ah. its 751. gg to sch le. shall blog again soon.

here are some retards pics drawn by me and thenghui during prndy lab lessons. =.=

BY MEMEMEMEMEME!

BY MEMEMEMEMEMEM

BY THENGHUI =.=

i bet all these drawing. a primary one kid could do better.
engine students afterall. LOL.
bye! i'm running late

2009-04-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

YEAH.
today i had my fringe and back straightened
kaoz. sibei paikai.=.=
maybe my back shd cut shorter abit.
lols.

i will make you life miserable when sch starts. ...
trust me.

2009-04-12T22:38:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT GUYS!
i'm not mia'ing nor i'm dead!
i know you guys miss me so much!
wahahhaha. cant live w/o me eh? =x
i went to hongkong , China , Macau
for 12 freaking days!
sorry for not telling due to some
personal reasons.

i'm back today. went SAO MU str away after getting
off th plane.
i'm so freaking tired!
after that. went home slp for 1 n 1/2hours.
went for soccer training at 2.30pm and i
just got back home. =.=
as usual, injured my fking leg due to
some retards kids playing legs instead of soccer.
but, i'm sure their leg is 10 times worse than mine. =D

i miss you guys so much when i'm there.
cant get to log into maple.
SIGH..
played dota during my free time.
those slideshow adove is from my phone de.
a few nia. i will upload more when i get the camera
back from my sis.

alright. i'm feaking tired now.
off to bed!
will blog again tmr.
(:
GOODNIGHTS!

2009-03-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

18march`09
today woke up with fever, my throat had an infection due to spicy food
i ate the day b4 yesterday.
didnt maple today cos i'm freaking tired and have been sleeping for the whole day.
i'm going to be lvl 100 (: now i'm 96.
i have gain 19 lvls just in 5 days with the help of WEIJUN. :D

today didnt go for training.
sorry bros.
and yeaps,
i got 2 drinking kakis alr.
yiling and long :D
MORE PLS.

`

i just need sometime alone.
stop doing stupid things just to see me.
its not worth it.
i'm not a guy worth your love.
i'm sry. i cannot take it any futher.
u dont think about my feelings or thoughts.
eg1, had a fall in kbox?
expect me to rush down and acc you when i'm fking tired and still working?
its 11pm u know.

eg2, your heartbeat jump very fast?
even your sis dont care about your health and u expect me go yr hse at tamp and take medicine for u to pasir ris?
ITS FKING 11PM.
have u ever think of how inconvenice for me to go down and have to take cab home?

u said u hav a great fall.
cannot walk.
need people carry.
when i reach there. u still can walk and crap?

.....

2009-03-14T01:34:00.002+08:00

its been donkey,rabbit,mouse,dog,fishy,cat years since i update my blog.
been busy working, mapling.. leading sucha unhealthy life.
currently working in IT fair for sony.
introduced by weijun. =D thks so much!
its fucking tiring, and the crowd is wtf -.-
wannting ,qilong, xingyong, bengliang is also working there :D
i miss so many ppl BADLY.
there's so many things i wanna do..
i wanna have fun like i used to.
i wanna drink with my bros.
i wanna go on a ride like i used to.
i wana have a zakum helmet!
i wanna have everything!
i wanna drink i wanna drink i wanna drink..
any kakis wanna drink with me?
please call or ms 94238333 =/

to all the insects animals on my tagbox.
thanks for TAGGING nonsense. THANKS.
please. go back to zoo or farm. =.=
i lazy to reply AND stop disturbing my blog or else..
i WILL spray insecticides or call SPCA.
WAHAHAHHA.

.p.s
please spare a thought for me in whatever you want to do.
i'm telling you this cos you DONT.
i'm not a machine for your info.

2009-02-24T22:21:00.001+08:00

two exams down,
two more to go.

i'm getting sick real soon.

2009-02-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

The scenery outside the window changes
Even the season leaves me behind
Being closer than anyone, why didn't I realize
That seed of worries at that time?

Before I'm unable to see your figure
I couldn't say just that, just that one phrase of "don't go"

I can never say that it's fine as long as you're happy
I can't help but to hate this twisted heart

The initial ring I received on my birthday
Remembering only makes me painful but
What I finally realized is that I relied
On you more than I thought

As if to even destroy the times spent together
The words that came out contrary to my heart was a good-bye in vain

I'm wishing that a day when you'll greatly regret will come
I hate this mean and ugly heart more than yesterday

I can never say that it's fine as long as you're happy
I can't help but to hate this twisted heart
I'm wishing that a day when you'll greatly regret will come
I hate this mean and ugly heart more than yesterday

2009-02-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

2009-02-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Post this as: things girls don't realize

2009-02-18T01:08:00.001+08:00

if only.. i could tell u how much i ....

i wont stay single till now..

is all becos of

you.

2009-02-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's to all.

2009-02-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

- kick started his career
One Summertime in May
A shitty band with friends from school
But only he could really play
The moment that he took the stage
The fans were blown away

- got twenty-seven kids but he
Doesn't know
Shame he'll never be around to
See them grow
Said he screwed a different girl
After every show
But he was always way too gone
To remember though
So - doesn't know

At 3a.m, it's getting late
The after party's closed
But everybody follows -
They just won't leave him alone.

He's in deep and there's a reason
He's all alone and he can't change
Like the seasons
They come and they go.

....

2009-02-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

2009-02-10T20:17:00.001+08:00

no date on valentine. so just stop asking me ` why ?
arghh~!

2009-02-08T21:36:00.001+08:00

i'm rotting.
rotting away.

freaking boredd .

2009-02-08T00:01:00.006+08:00

Be My Valentine.

2009-02-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

You know that you are the center of my attention and you leave me no choice
Tripping on to the floor
Looking at my reflection as I follow the chord to your voice as it rings on through
Your voice clearly receptive like the day we met
I knew.

Don't hang up on me 'cause I'm hung up on you
Don't tell me how to feel like you always do
I know you're right
I don't wanna fight
Is this how our story ends or a new chapter begins?

As the days roll by
Cant help myself
Just sit and wonder why
Was it something I said?
something I did?
My girl

Your wilted roses make me cry
A sentimental sign of rejection as I follow the chord to your voice as it rings on through
your voice clearly receptive like the day we met
I knew

Don't hang up on me 'cause I'm hung up on you
Don't tell me how to feel like you always do
I know you're right
I don't wanna fight
Is this how our story ends or a new chapter begins?

You've got to ensure your place with me
There's no room left for me to breathe
Every waking hour was just a new reminder of the time we spent together
Just say I love you...

Don't hang up on me 'cause I'm hung up on you
Don't tell me how to feel like you always do
I know you're right
I don't wanna fight
Is this how our story ends or a new chapter begins?

2009-01-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

i'm not going to open up anymore. theses days i realise that my weakness is i care too much. the scars on me, reminds me that my past is real, i'm not gonna repeat my mistake again. i didnt know how to reject u at that moment.. i alr got someone else in my heart. even if i'm with you. my heart isnt.. whats the point. i dont wanna hurt u. i dont wanna hurt anyone. i just cant bring myself to tell u this. i cared too much about your feelings. but. i seriously hope to clear this misunderstanding. i really hope we can be good friends again..

i'm sorry.
so sry.

2009-01-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

I didnt expect things to turn out this way.
i'm so confused..
sigh..

2009-01-21T18:13:00.001+08:00

Jun Hao sucks . stop skippinq lessons lah . ): * spews vulqarities at you HAHA * can dont end lesson so late tmr not ! why four & not twelveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

2009-01-21T17:52:00.000+08:00

I'm the son of rage and love
The Jesus of Suburbia
From the bible of none of the above
On a steady diet of soda pop and Ritalin
No one ever died for my sins in hell
As far as I can tell
At least the ones I got away with

And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me

Get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
The living room or my private womb
While the moms and brads are away
To fall in love and fall in debt
To alcohol and cigarettes and Mary Jane
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine

And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me

City Of The Damned

At the center of the Earth
In the parking lot
Of the 7-11 where I was taught
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time

City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to care

I read the graffiti
In the bathroom stall
Like the holy scriptures of a shopping mall
And so it seemed to confess
It didn't say much
But it only confirmed that
The center of the earth
Is the end of the world
And I could really care less

City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to careeeeee

I don't care

Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Hearts recycled but never saved
From the cradle to the grave
We are the kids of war and peace
From Anaheim to the middle east
We are the stories and disciples
Of the Jesus of suburbia
Land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Land of make believe
And I don't believe
And I don't care!

Dearly beloved

Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse

Tales of another broken home

To live and not to breathe
Is to die In tragedy
To run, to run away
To find what you believe
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
I lost my faith to this
This town that don't exist

So I run
I run away
To the light of masochist
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
And I walked this line
A million and one fucking times
But not this time

I don't feel any shame
I won't apologize

When there ain't nowhere you can go
Running away from pain
When you've been victimized
Tales from another broken home
Ah you're leaving home...

2009-01-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

OH! WHT THE FUCK IS THAT INSIDE HIS MOUTH?
opps,sry i forgot to intro our class M811 loser..
he's stanley SIM aka loser and lots more..
why is he being called a loser? long story.. i bet if i were to tell u from the start. you might fall aslp. so i'll just summarised it. he's called a loser because, he was born a loser. =.=
lol.
oh yah. whats that in his mouth?
weijun told me that a flock of birds flew adove him, and gave him some of their *feasts* since he's fucking hungry ...... WHILE SLEEPING =.= ahahahhaha

loser`sim pwned!

2009-01-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

tada! this is our Mr`theng`thenghui aka hui ge..his brains reaction time has 4 second delay, (worst than dota delay) with a pentium 1 processor which means (1+1 = ?) Our hui ge needs 5mins to figure out that equation.
hmms. let me guess whats in his dreams. hmm. he dreamt of going clubbing when he`s still underage? poor him. i got lots more of his photo. i'll update tmr. (:

Huige pwned!

2009-01-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

oh oh oh... this is JJ, aka Pussyboy, gayboy and lots more to mention.
do you think he look fierce in this photo? he's a dragonboater` and he's seriously in love with morgan? yinghui uh? LOL. i didnt meant to say this. but. tmr i will upload a picture of jj and morgan 2gther.`edited! hahah.

jj pwned!

2009-01-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

force to put ):

although i know i look cute(: hahahhahaha
thanks kris! <3

2009-01-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

Dear love
Better sit down
Bad news
Get the word out
Accidents come with conclusions

I'm numb
On the asphalt
Don't cry
Wasn't your fault
I can't feel
It's just confusion
Keep on, keep on, keep on, when I'm gone

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

Tear drops
Paint the faces
Despair
Is contagious
Dressed in black
Clutching a red rose
Hold on, hold on, hold on, my love goes on

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

And the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let me song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

2009-01-16T13:13:00.001+08:00

Yi Linq here . to help Jun Hao post HAHA . cos he's uber lazy . &he qot it into his mind suddenly to ask me help him post . so i shall help him to liven up his bloq . :D

Jun Hao is a ah benq .

why do i say so ? cos that idiot fouqht at school for THREE consecutive days . once even at mushroom ! idk is he nuts or just crazy or lost all his screws or sth . he like dont even care there's th chance he miqht qet expelled . anw , th incident's over . &henq henq nth happen to him . :D

anw anw , if he fail today's test he cannot blame me hor . cos ytd while we were chattinq on phone he neqlected to tell me he qot test . in th end we talked to 1am or so HAHA . then he went to sleep . but he couldnt possibly have failed . cos he * censored * . HAHA i cant say ! he say i cannot let him paiseh . =/

nah , Lim Jun Hao ! qo see this post &your other posts . th rest all like so emo luh ! mine is like so lively . =/ HAHA okay damn bhb . upload picsssssss . :D

2009-01-11T12:54:00.000+08:00

I found your picture in my wallet
Still got your sweater in my closet
I'll bring 'em by
Maybe tonight

And people askin' how I'm doin'
But every question still has you in
I say I'm fine
And I never think about you
But you're always on my mind

I'm getting over you most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true
I'm getting over you

Been playing the songs you hated
I called a girl I almost dated
She's not the one
But I'm having fun
And I'm better off without you
And I think it's what I want

2009-01-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

All that I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face
and I sat up straight

I wanted to know you,
show you.

You don't know me,
Don't ignore me,
You don't want me there,
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

No i just don't understand why you
Wont talk to me it hurts that
i'm so unwanted for nothing

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
They just won’t go away.

I used to think that I was strong,
Until that day it all went wrong,

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when your not around
I need to hold on to you

My random post.
what i'm actually talking about or referring to who
i also don't know.
don't ask me.
i'm crazy (:

2009-01-04T03:07:00.000+08:00

time check! its 3AM now.
damn, kept having sleepless nights.
kidnap my heart, this song kept resounding in my head.
you suck.
nights.

2009-01-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

Hey girl, whats your name i think I caught you looking my way
Do you wanna know how to get me of to your own
Weekends work the best i pick the place you do the rest
Hey now don't be shy but you got to keep me in line
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Can you get me up more
Fun that i can ever dream of
Could you tie me down
Can you keep me hanging around
I don't wanna be into keep you company
Put your hand in mine got to hold on top of the ride
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

You've got to hold me tighter
Cause I'm a real fighter
Don't tear us apart
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
but you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
take me with you
Kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Is very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Kidnap my heart
`Kidnap my heart....

2009-01-02T02:29:00.000+08:00

I need to wake up from this state of mind,
The situation is the same kind,
I gotta get your memory out of my head,
Would someone catch me if I had to fall?
i'm broken down like a mirror smashed to peices
i learned the hard way to shut my mouth and smile
Cause everytime i fight the scars are gonna heal
but memories are never gonna go away,
stucked in the same old nightmare.
And there're so many things that I want you to know.
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see someone like you.
i thought i could forget yet.
despite it all, sometimes i still think about you.

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There's only fears
Anyone who is not me,
Will never understand.

its 3am now. i had sch at 9am tmr.
damn. still cant sleep yet..
haishaishaishaishais.
i took 2 hours to write this post.
i Anyone who is not you,
Will never understand.
i WANTED someone,
to CARE about me,
not NEED me,
if there is such person.

2009-01-01T19:16:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year everyone. (:
its a new year, and there's lots of things which i wanna achieve.

1.Get good results for my Main Examinations which is coming in 6 weeks time.
2.Get into Aerospace
3.Completely quit smoking? ( =.= ) i know lots of ppl would believe.
4.Get my bike licence.
5.I want a LOVING GIRLFRIEND! (:
6.Let my fring grow back like i used to have.
7.Stop dota`ing as much.
8.you suck

Ytd countdown was =.=
i got drunk, do stupid things.
i even carried jasmine up and almost throw her into th pool.
haha. binghan was still the best drinker. i knew he was drunk too. but POOR HIM
hav to takecare of me cos i kept doing stupid things?
Jiajun was drunk too, not bad ah! first time see u drink so much.
thenghui, another idiot, dunno ask me do what.
jackson was lucky as i didnt force him to drink as his gf was there too.
i almost mistaken wendy as jasmine.
wendy, she somehow resemble my ex,
she's cute.
aft drinkin, slpt over at weijun hse till 8 plus went home. bath , eat , sleep again till 3 plus!

thats how my new year countdown went.
so just stop asking me.
(:

2008-12-28T15:12:00.001+08:00

I should feel happy today. Really. But I feel pretty confused. So funny right? I am such a confusing person. I am cheerful outside. But not really? My mood swings are a viscious cycle.

Heh, I am confusing myself. >.<

So many things that I want to do at the same time, and so many people that I should be liking as well.

Don't understand what I am saying? Fine. So do I. (:

2008-12-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

it's not hard to realize that how a single thought can easily affect a person's feeling.
especially negative thoughts.

i was there when everything happen.
a question, a mere question, that was supposing should be helping.
however, just because of a thought, a difference in interpreting its meaning.
it causes someone to suffer, sad, disappointed, regret, even giving up.
i tried to help, but yet, she's taking me for granted.

i don't think that it should be given such an importance on what is going on.
you have made a decision, you shouldn't look back and regret on the decision you made.
looking back and regret will only makes you feel bad about it.
what people should do, after making a decision, is to carry on what that's been decided,
or, if what is decided is wrong, fix it. not feel bad about it.

easy said than done, right?
not really, as long as you want to do that, for real.

also, people tends to expect something in return, when they sacrifice something.
no one will sacrifice themselves for you, if they know that they would not get anything out of it.
i too, expect something in return everytime i sacrifice myself, and i'm not sure if people really understand what i really need in return.
but most of the time, i just forgets about it and carry on with my life.
because i don't regret what i've decided, not as often as other people, but sometime i do regret....
what i have done so far, have shaped me into who i am now, and i think that how i was shaped wasn't so bad after all.

for those who i have disappointed, i'm sorry.
for those who treasures my existance, Thank you.

2008-12-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

went pub in somerset near robinsons ytd with my bros.
its been a long time since i go out with them.
well. its quite fun. we're all quite high.
walk through the streets of somerset, orchard..
spray here spray there.
then went our homeground to slack alr.

i'll upload th photos tonight.
tata`i'm gg out (:

2008-12-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

hi dead blog! (:
i'm back!
just came back from msia this afternoon,
taken lots of pics. first time?
yeah. gone for 5 days! so stop msging me asking me whether i DIE alr or MIA
when i didn't reply?
for th first time i enter th casino,
and for th first time i win 200bucks on BIG AND SMALL.
(:

well, i do miss you loads.
i'm still waiting for u notice me.
i'm scare to face u, or rather even see u in school.
you're th first girl that i will react this way.
but we are ppl of different world...
i know that.
so i better give up that thought (:
MOVE ALONG MOVE ALONG LIKE I KNOW YA DO!

:jasmine
so many couples, in genting. i wish u were here with me.
i'm not a playboy.
i want a lasting rs.
i want u to care for me
u only NEED me.
not love me. cos i cant feel when i'm with you.
i had alr given in alot.
why cant u simply understand me.
maybe we're just not fated to be 2gther..

all i want is a girlfirend who cares for me, not need me.

hahs. i'm soooo fking random now,
5days never dota, hand damn itchy..
play 6 games in a row.
all win no loss! ahaha.
kinda proud of myself.
and stupid bh ask me to fuck off =.=

damn. i'm gg to upload pics on my friendster! bbye guys!

2008-12-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

i l you.
i had a great day today,
thanks fo your letter and heart.
i'll throw , opps, sorry. keep it in a v.good place where i can see it
everyday which is my dustbin. hahahahahahahahah.

2008-12-02T00:33:00.001+08:00

what's a crush to do?
when u cant even get through..

2008-12-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

Well I think that things are better this way
When it seems like you're breathing
But you're already dead to me

2008-11-30T12:57:00.000+08:00

we lost u long ago,
along the way.
i never thought i'll be . here without you.
maybe i'm better off..
better off still.

myabe i'll be fine.
maybe..

2008-11-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

2008-11-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

i tell myself this time it’s different,
No goodbye’s cause eyes can better say it
I’ll never survive and want us coming

Just walk away
Don’t look back, cause if my heart breaks
It’s gonna hurt so bad, you know I am strong
But I can’t take back before it’s to late

Each goodbye, her dress and same old song
But this time I will not surrender
Cause I’m gone.

the world seems like a miss
when it won't let go of me
but when it's gone I don't feel
when it's gone I don't feel alive

2008-11-09T15:41:00.000+08:00

thanks guys. i realy enjoy the chalet. =D
its damn fun. and lastly.
this will leave a memory in us forever.
:)

2008-11-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

Look at me.
You can tell,
By the way I move and do my hair,
Do you think that it's me?
Or it's not me?
I don't even care.
I'm alive, i don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.

My stomach hurts now,
And i'll tie it off in lace.
I pray, beg for anything to hit me in the face.
And this sickness isn't me.
And I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling

i'm a fake

`random post

2008-11-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing,
When the wheel stop spinning cause we don't
Know where we're going
And here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
All to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

but I never knew I loved her,
till the day she laid her eyes on me.
Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me.

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it,
and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,.
I've got your our mixed tape in my Walkman,
been so long since we've been talkin' and in a few
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

I've been tryin' to think for weeks of
All the ways to ask you, And now
I've brought you to the place, Where I've
Poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
Reasons.

2008-11-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

As I'm staring through this fire
It's too LATE to make you mine
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted
And as both our worlds fall down
We have lost and we have found

Oh I should have seen the signs
Now we're falling back in time
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted
And I'm trying to right this wrong
So I need you to be strong
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted

2008-11-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

He hid a hate inside and had a state of mind
That put him in his grave
It began with his friends
They never noticed the despair in his eyes
From the pressure
His life was etched in stone
Before he made a choice of his own

And hes dedicated
For everyday that hes made it on his own
In his fathers eyes hes a pair of dice
He wont be number one
He cant be number one

So he tries to comply
With everything they've ever asked
He says Im never gonna be perfect
Maybe I dont deserve his trust
but Im doing the best I can
Ive never dealt with such pressure
Feels like my whole lifes etched in stone
Before Ive made a choice of my own

Cause of death:
Obvious from my suicide note
The last words that filled the page:
if no one will listen than no one
will miss me when Im gone
Across punggol my family falls asleep
Never knowing i was never going to come home
The last thoughts that filled my head
Ill tell him Im sorry Ill
say I regret what I did
Its my life
Ill end my own life

His bedrooms filled with emptiness tonight
As the silence cuts through like a knife
Knowing hes not there

D=

2008-11-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

i've no obligation to stay alive.
things are rather smooth theses days.
without a girlfriend, my parents doesn't worry about me that much anymore.
i'm happy
with the life i'm leading now.
with my BROS and friends in TP and SEC sch friends.
i love u guys.
i'm looking forward to this friday.
my urge for GENGHAO TO TEAR HIS UNDERWEAR APART is
coming.
i'm so excited.
yet. another part of me.
is telling me that i'm getting lost.
getting lost in my life.
i wanted something else.
i don't know what is it.
i feel some part of my life is missing.
so empty.
can anyone tell me whats that?

whenever i was falling for a relationship.
those feelings.
lead me to think of her.
and thats pulling me back.
its soo hard to forget about her.
i wanted to tell her so much.
so much.
but, she aint the girl anymore.
i would not go back to her.
and i won't take back my words.
whats hatred?
whats revenge?
i had accomplish my goals.
but. i feel so.. like a bastard.
damn it.
maybe, maybe time will heals everything.
and to you.
i will be there for u whenever u need me.
as well as all my friends.

to_
Girl,
just that one night with you,
All the things we could do,
no one else but us two,
but dont betray me.
cos my heart is fragile.

but things at this stage.
i cant soften my heart, cos i ain't worth it for you.

2008-10-26T13:55:00.000+08:00

chairs thrown and tables toppled,
Hands armed with broken bottles,
Standing no chance to win but,
We're not running, we're not running.

There's a point I think we're missing,
It's in the air we raise our fists in,
In the smiles we cast each other,
My sister, my brother.

About the time we gave up hoping,
We never find these locks still open,
Stumbling on stones unturned,
The hurt we feel, we all have earned.

The lines we've cross in search of change,
but all they see is treason

Although we have no obligation to stay alive,
On broken backs we beg for mercy, we will survive,
I won't be left here,
Behind closed doors.

Bonfires burn like beacons,
Guiding the lost and weakened.
Flames dance on crashing waves,
Guiding ships who've gone astray

Time out, let's stop and think this through,
We've all got better things to do,
Than talk in circles, run in place,
Answers inches from my face.

Black eyes, broken fingers,
Blood drips and I let it run,
down my lips into my swollen gums,
When hope is non-existent,
Our instincts all scream "Run",
We never turn our backs or even bite our tongue

2008-10-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

damn. today fought 1 on 1 with a muai-thai user -he learn it for 1 yr alr.
lost like fk.
landed him 3 punch on face.
he returned me 8 punch -.-
wtf.
i was out of breath alr.
maybe i wasn't cut out for it.
lose face like fk.
so many girls somemore.
zzzz.
weak weak weak..
yet i though i grown stronger. -.-
HAIS!

2008-10-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

told my parents about i almost fainted during training,
not a bit of concern,
their reply was,
see la, play too much computer games and sleep so late.
damn. i wished i could just die during training man.
forget it.
they're only concerned about my little brother.
sigh.

2008-10-14T03:39:00.000+08:00

its 3.39am now. yet i can't seems to fall asleep.
i'm very tired. real tired.
whenever i close my eyes, i think of random stuff.
today had training, i almost fainted.
i guess i'm just too weak to be in dragonboat.
should i quit? or just wait to be kicked out?
sigh. what should i do.
i'm just too
weak..

Quarrel with my parents about phones,
well, i cant blame them.
its all my fault.
they shouldn't let me be out of this world.
making them worry..
making them sad..
making them disappointed..
what should i do.

Can anyone tell me?

2008-10-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

sry rach, ba0beii and baba.
deleted your tags due to some stuff.

rach, i will miss you too. as well as my friends =D

baba, concentrate on yr Os.

ba0beii, i forget wad u tagged -.-

2008-10-12T01:43:00.000+08:00

you are overdoing it.
don't blame me for treating u so badly
do u still rmb wad u said to me when i was waiting for u?
STOP PESTERING ME OR ELSE WE WONT EVEN BE FRIENDS''
when u said this that time.
i never forget this sentence.
but for now,
u and him got prob then come to me ahs.
i dont give a fuck about it.

i Sincerly hope we can just remained as normal friends.
we are not couples anymore.
u had your freedom while i had mine.
u forced me to give up on you.
and i thought i told u dont regret?
you said u miss me?

when i was still waiting for u.
i wanna meet u everyday.
rmb wad u said?

hmms. see first.
cannot. i got tuition.

from that day, he went over ur house staying over.
I GAVE UP alr.
u got me made my decision and realise that, you're not the one i knew anymore.

and now,
i finally GOT OVER IT. with so many sleepless nights.
and i dun wish to go back once again.
thanks for your understanding.

Guys, i'm not gg hk ler.
hais. but i'm happy at th same time. =D
with you guys around.
i wont be bored~

2008-10-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

It's a fucked up world, what a fucked up place,
Everybody's judged by their fucked up face,
Fucked up dreams, fucked up life,
Fucked up kid, with a fucked up knife,

Thats a fucked up cop, with a fucked up badge,
Fucked up job, with fucked up pay,
Fucked up boss, is a fucked up day,
Ain't it a shame that you can't say fuck,
Fucks just a word and it's all fucked up,
Like a fucked up punk, with a fucked up mouth,
Nine inch nails'll get knock the fuck out,

Aint life a bitch, a fucked up bitch,
A fucked up sword with a fucked up stitch,
A fucked up head, is a fucked up shame,

Swingin on my nuts is a fucked up game,
Jealousy fillin up my fucked up mind,
its all fucked up like a fucked up crime,
If I say fuck two more times,
Thats 46 fucks in this fucked up post,

Just know that nothin you do, will bring you closer to me,

2008-10-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

No one knows what's it like.
to feel theses feelings.

i dont wanna waste my time,
to become a casualty of society

2008-10-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's not all that bad,
Yesterday's not all we have,
Sorry I could not make this last,

One thing I need from you
That's honesty
Please never lie to me
That's what she said to me

One thing for sure is that
I will be true
In everything I do.

yeaps.
i'm not ready yet.

2008-10-04T15:23:00.000+08:00

My Heart is for sale.
anyone buying it ?

though.
itsBROKEN.

2008-10-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

i trusted you.
u took it for granted.
it doesn't matter anymore.
u're consider dead to me
move on. cos i'm moving on.
without you.
i dont need anyone sympathy.
as for now.
i just wanna be happy.
u introduced me to your world of hypocrisy.
and.
i dont give a fcuk about it.

That you're leaving and you're ready to go.
Cause you thought I was cheating.
But I dont think you want to know.
Well I think that things are better this way.
When it seems like you're breathing.
But you're already dead to me.

Making up my mind on you
Is something I wish I could do

2008-09-18T01:09:00.001+08:00

`a lonely september

wake me up when september ends_____